Bullying, Criticised, Ostracise

I became stronger, by telling myself everything would be over.

Pain, Hardship, Powerless

That’s what I feel when I go through it all by myself.

Obedience, Responsible, Studious

That’s what I was expected to be.

Happy, Carefree, Pampered

That’s what people saw me as.

Tolerance, Endurance, Patience

That’s what I taught myself to become stronger.

Depression, Starving, Anxiety

That’s what I got, by trying to be stronger all by myself.

Breathless, Oppressive, Heart burn

That’s what I tried to overcome every day.

Unconditioned love, Future, Scarifies

That’s what you promise me.

Thrill, Endorphins, Security 

That’s what you gave me.

Lost, Confusion, Dispose

That’s what you left me with when you left.

Insecurities, Overthinking, Over analysing

That’s what I do when you left.

Hatred, Unworthy, Pathetic

Was I ever good enough for anyone?

Cheated, Angered, Sadness

That’s when I saw you again.

But I don’t blame you.

I love you, I miss you, I’ll stay with you forever

Those words you said hunt me now.

Sorrow, Heartbreak, Numbness

Because, when l recall, it’s all I feel.

Disappointment, Insufficient, Incompetent

That’s what I see myself as in your shoe

It wasn’t your fault.

Realisation, Grateful, Thankful

For everything you’ve done to me.

Forgiveness, Kindness, Appreciation

For everything you’ve taught me.

Relived, Lightness, Contentment

That’s what I feel when I finally smile.

I got stronger and better all by myself.

Cautious, Doubtful, Loneliness

But it broke some parts of me.

Mean, Blunt, Emotionless

That’s what I portray, as a shield to protect myself.

Clueless, Innocent, Unknowing

That’s what I show, to get to understand people’s true motive

Smart, Observant, Quick-witted

That’s what I really was.

Happy, Stronger, Broken

That’s what I am now.

But I don’t blame you.

It wasn’t your fault.

Nobody could love a broken person like me.

Not even me.